Testimonies

And he did not permit him but said to him, “Go home to your friends and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.” Mark 5:19
Oh give thanks to the Lord; call upon his name; make known his deeds among the peoples! 1Chron 16:8


Do you have a story of God's work in your life?
Share it with us so that others may be encouraged.
send it to cbtgroup@christianbikertabernacle.org 
(just title it Testimonies)

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Testimony of Heather Lanning (Nov.2018)

The beginning years of my life I was raised in a Pentecostal church. I came to know Jesus at the age of 4. I was being sexually abused, for the first time, and I found comfort in Jesus’ arms even at that young age. My parents divorced when I was 9, due to my father’s extramarital affair, and it was about that time that my life started to spiral out of control. I was sexually abused again around the age of 10 by a close friend of the family. By the age of 12 I was acting out sexually and with alcohol and drugs.

I had my first child at the age of 16 and then another at the age of 21, not married or even in a stable relationship. I lost custody of my 2nd son and in result gave up my first son, who was raised by my father, praise God. I was in and out of mental hospitals and drug rehabs for most of my teenage and young adult life. I had abortions and lived life in deep darkness and misery, drinking and doing drugs and constantly trying to end my life. I returned to Jesus at the age of 28 when I went into God’s Ranch Discipleship program, I got married to my first husband before leaving the program but due to consequences of my prior actions I spent time in prison where I had my 3rd son. I continued to live for Jesus for a few years but then again compromised my walk and fell to the world and drugs. Again, I gave up my child and husband.

That excursion of falling away was short-lived and it didn’t take long to go back to my first love, Jesus. Soon after getting back on track I found out I was pregnant with my daughter and about a year after she was born I found my husband now, that was 13 years ago. But again, after about 5 years of compromise I fell into the world of alcohol and drugs and gave up my daughter and husband, who also fell into alcoholism. For about a year I walked in complete darkness not wanting to be alive. I felt myself trying to call the Holy Sprit out of me and just letting me die, even though I knew the consequences of the second death, I deserved it and I knew it.

But, praise God, I had people praying for me that knew their prayers would overcome my darkness. After living out a lot of “Nevers” in my life (the bad things that I had never done before), I was awakened by God with one more chance. I was in a bad place and the opportunity to go back to God’s Ranch was available and I took it, 12 years after the first time. I finally surrendered my whole life to Jesus on May 19, 2012 and have not looked back. I accepted Jesus’ forgiveness and decided to quit putting Him on the cross and start living in His resurrection of new life. One of the first miracles I experienced after returning to Jesus was a month after I was in the program I was able to make a phone call, I couldn’t get a hold of my kids so I called my Dad, I thank God that he blocked my other calls because that was the last time I got to speak to my earthly father, he passed away 2 weeks later. When I was about 3 months into the discipleship program God restored my relationship with my husband, and he too came into the men’s part of the program, we hadn’t talked or seen each other in months, more like a year, it was truly another miracle.

It has been 6 years since I have given my life fully to Him and he has truly restored all things. I have a blessed marriage, I have a relationship with 6 out of 7 children, 4 of my own and 3 step, (my second son has still to meet me and he has my first grandchild, but I know one day that will be restored also), and 2 of our children are even living with us now, we have a home, jobs, ministry, church family, and relationships with blood family. God has given me more now than I ever could imagine, and by the worlds standards we shouldn’t have anything. The most important thing I have received is the light of Jesus and the peace of mind he gives, because I have been forgiven I am able to forgive and not live with the weight of all that sin and guilt. Because of the transformation Jesus has made in both of mine and my husbands’ life our children are able to witness to what Jesus can do since they saw us at our worst.

I live for Jesus now and have realized the sacrifice he has made so that I can walk in His everlasting powerful light. I know that I must stay in fellowship with Him through prayer, His Word, and fellowship with others. I cannot compromise my walk and need accountability, obedience is not a suggestion it is a command.
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Testimony of Reva Wren (Nov 2018)

So many years, so many lessons, it’s hard to know where to begin. Should I start when I was a child? Which period of life should I tell of God’s miracles? Way too many to list….

The day I really met my Lord – the One who truly loves me.

I grew up in a family where the presence of verbal and physical abuse, violence, abandonment, and alcoholism took a terrible toll. My mom did the best she thought she could do. But what was lacking was any real closeness in the home. Hugs and kisses and "I love you" were something that was not part of my childhood. And that is something that would affect me for a lot of years and still sneaks into areas of my heart. My reaction to these influences was to become withdrawn, secretive, untrusting, and solitary. I still battle the urge to withdraw and become a hermit when trials get tough.

We never spoke of God in our home, but here and there I remember hearing of Him, being able to attend Sunday school once in a while, but didn’t know anything about Him.

In the world’s eyes I was a pretty good girl, I didn’t go to parties, I didn’t date, I didn’t get caught up in drugs and alcohol. I studied hard, read a lot, stayed in my room and craved attention. When I hit middle school and high school, even though I was never popular, some boys started to notice me. They were giving me the attention I desperately craved, and didn't feel I received at home. They were so nice to me when they were trying to get something from me. They would tell me that they loved me. I had almost never heard anyone say those words to me. I would give them what they wanted, and I would get the "love" I was aching for, for a moment. I never felt good enough – there was an aching inside of me that wouldn’t go away. I hated myself and my low self esteem. I became what is known as a “cutter”. I felt that I had no control and no choices in my life so I mutilated myself to prove that I could control at least one thing in my life.

When I was 20 years old I went to visit my biological father that I had only met once before when I was 18. I took my two young daughters with me and moved in with him and his family inMaine– thousands of miles from my family inCalifornia. My mother had disowned me, my step father had tried to rape me, my husband and I were separated and I thought maybe I would find the love that I yearned for with my dad. But he didn’t know me and wasn’t ready to try to build a relationship with me. After just a few months I moved out of my Dad’s house and the owner of the bar where I worked said that he and his wife would watch my daughters while I tried to get on my feet. I moved in with another waitress and applied for some grants. One day when I went to visit my little girls, the youngest one called out “Mommy” and ran right past me into the arms of the lady that was caring for her. That was the rock bottom, I felt like there was absolutely no one left in the world that loved me, even my own babies rejected me.

The rejection was devastating. There was no-one that loved me, no family, no friends, no one. I ran out of that house and to my room-mates apartment and slit my wrists, I had no reason to live, no hope and no love. My room-mate came home and called the ambulance and they took me to the hospital. I was screaming, hitting, fighting to die. The emergency room personnel, a doctor and a nurse, tried everything to reason with me, to get me to live. They spoke of my children, my family, my future – none of that mattered without love. I punched and cussed and yelled for them to just let me die. I never had felt so alone, rejected and abandoned as that day.

And then a young nurse appeared from out of no where, she leaned over me as I lay strapped to the hospital bed, looked into my eyes and said; “Reva, don’t die, we love you”. All of a sudden all the fight left me, her eyes reflected a love that I had never seen before. There was no doubt in my mind that what she said was the absolute truth – someone loved me. It seemed as if she disappeared and God himself was in that room telling me that I was loved. I had never felt a love like that in my entire life.

After being stitched up I was sent to the psychiatric ward for a week. I did nothing but cry, not a sorrow cry, more like a cleansing cry – 24 hours a day – non stop tears. While I was on that ward I asked the ward nurse to find out who that emergency room nurse was so I could thank her. I was so persistent that she went to get the information for me. When she came back she was confused, she said that there were only the one doctor and the one nurse on call that night and they said there was never another person in the room with us. I knew for sure then that I had been visited by God’s messenger. He had sent an angel to tell me that He loved me.

After this experience, I did not doubt the existence of God. I definitely believed He was real, I believed I was worth something to Him; I believed I was loved and I believed I had been forgiven. I had a peace with regard to my future. Somehow I knew that everything was going to be fine – God Almighty Himself loved me. I understood without a doubt that I was not alone and I never would be again.

I got my daughters back, moved back toCaliforniawith my husband, and immediately began searching the scriptures to find out all I could about this God who loved me. In time I realized that all He wanted from me was for me to love Him in return. I realized that I had to be His, not only in word, but in deed, in heart, in soul, and in mind. Love couldn't be half-way. I came home still spiritually immature, but so much in love with my new found Lord.

That was the beginning of my long learning period, through which I learned to be dependant on God alone. I would still become hurt by people and relied on people for security through the years but through many hard lessons and the healing power of God Himself I came to realize that God was the only stable thing in my life. Throughout the years, I've come to realize that He alone can fill me, complete me, and change me into all I could ever want to be. Since then, it's been a walking out my faith, learning new things, as I go, and working out problems with my loving Father. No matter what has come my way – I don’t doubt His Love for me. Even when I don’t understand some of the devastating events – I have complete trust in Him – I know He loves me and He would never hurt me or allow anything to happen to me that He isn’t fully aware of, fully in control of, and is totally for the best. I trust God – He loves me.

The only thing God desires of me is my ultimate love of Him and the working out of my love through obedience. Looking back I can see His hand guiding, comforting, teaching me – looking forward,  I see His promise to never leave me and never forsake me. I hang on to God's promise that in the end, I'll see a wonderful life and home with Him and my loved ones for Eternity. He said so. I believe Him because He loves me and He has never lied to me.

I could tell you of all the sins I committed, all the pain I’ve endured, all the wickedness I’ve witnessed and been a part of – or I could tell you about the One that I love.  

We all come from somewhere, from upbringings and circumstances that shape the decisions we make and the people we become. We make choices about how to live our lives and how to treat people based on what life has given us and what people have done for us or to us. We are all different, and our reactions to the circumstances of our lives vary from person to person. Therefore, to blame our own choices of how we live our life on situations or people in the past is simply a denial of the truth. I am responsible for my own choices. I could tell you about what this one or that one, or my parents, etc... did to me, and the world would say, "That's why she did what she did. Who can blame her?" But the truth is that God holds each one of us accountable for our own choices. Until I owned up to the fact that the decisions I made and still make are my responsibility and not someone else's, God's grace couldn’t reach those areas. I thought I had no control, a victim forever but… His love gave me the power to be in control. So many of us go through terrible abuse and rejections in these end times, not being in that category is a rarity. But none of that really matters, what does matter is that we can choose to forgive; we can choose to be kind, we can choose to show mercy, we can choose to love in spite of our pain. Allowing God into your life enables you to choose life and love and much more. And I chose to tell you my testimony, simple – powerful; Jesus Loves Me.

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Testimony of Joe Bell 

My name is Joe. Before I came to this Ministry, I had a promising career in the construction field. But I felt as though something was missing in my life. But just couldn't figure out what that was. So instead of searching to find that answer, I turned to booze and drugs to fill that void. So much so, that eventually that lifestyle led me to homelessness but more so, hopelessness.

Until I met Pastor Ed and the Christian Biker Tabernacle. the Discipleship (thru Pastor Ed) taught me the truth about Christ, instilled a faith and trust in God that I used to put in money, booze and drugs. I learned what it meant to stand up on my own two feet and take responsibilty for my own actions. (Past, Present and Future) But most importantly to be honest with God, myself and others.

By allowing my old life to die and being re-born in Christ, my marriage has been restored and I have self esteem. But even more so I am a productive member of society, who doesn't have to live my life taking and hurting but instead giving and helping.

Could I have found the Lord and had my life restored without Pastor Ed and his Ministry? Possibly... But I don't believe I would have this magnitude and depth of love and understanding.

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Testimony by Jackie Wells

Hi my name is Jackie and I'm a greatful believer in Jesus Christ and a recovering drug addict. Prior to coming to God's Ranch my drug abuse spanned approximently 33 years. I was in drug treatment 7 times completeing 6 of them, detox 8 times and I completed a 2 year out patient program required by the court because of a DUI. In between those times I was in various other institutions because of my drug addiction. I had no lasting sobriety after getting out of any of these places.

I was living in my car when I showed up at Pastor Ed and Reva's looking for God's Ranch. I entered the program that day and completed the 6 month commitment. Upon entering the program I had a lot of head knowledge about addiction from previous centers and some about Jesus from going to Church off and on. But, I had no heart knowledge about Him. I didn't know how to have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
I learned that at God's Ranch and so much more. I learned about His love for me and how to love others. I learned about His grace and mercy and how to have compassion for others. I learned about His forgiveness and through that how to forgive myself and others.

Through the community service in the program I learned how to get out of myself and into helping others. The void in my heart that I tried to fill with drugs all those years was lifted through knowing Jesus Christ. The God of the universe became my everything. The program wasn't easy, but it's awesome. It changed me and in turn changed my life. Change isn't easy but its also not an option in maintaining sobriety.

Since graduating the program I've moved to a small town near Mt. Rainier where I have a job and am involved in my Church. I am also a leader in Celebrate Recovery, a 12 Step Christ centered recovery group. There with God's help I continue with what I was taught at God's Ranch by helping others find hope through Jesus Christ in sobriety.

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Testimonies of Matthew & Christina Atwood

This letter is in regards to the Ministry work being done by Pastor Ed Wren and his wife Reva, and their team at the Christian Biker Tabernacle in Tacoma, Washington.

My husband and I entered their discipleship program in November of 2000. We were both broken and troubled by a 20-year addiction to methamphetamines. We were unemployable, emotionally unavailable to our 2 children, and headed towards seperation, prison, or death.

Pastor Ed took Matt under his wing as I made a 90-day commitment to live a God's Ranch. We attended Church several times a week along with faith based 12 step meetings and various Bible Studies. We also participated in house blessings and community outreaches which included the running of a food and clothing bank, feeding the homeless in downtown Tacoma, volunteering at the World Vision warehouse, and many other local charity events. the focus of the program was to introduce us to Our Lord and provide us the tools to reenter society as productive members after making relapse prevention plans and securing outside support.

We know a lot of people who have been loved through this ministry now living awesome successful faith-filled lives. We are only 2, with almost 9 years clean and sober; a journeyman carpenter and a retail store manager. A husband and wife, a mother and father, a grandma and grandpa, Children of God.

We are forever grateful to the folks at the Christian Biker Tabernacle. The strength and devotion to the call on their lives and the love shared through the obedience to the mission is contagious. My husband and I both have our own ministries as do several of our closest friends, all products and fruit of Pastor Ed and his ministry at CBT. Their love saves lives.

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Testimony of Terry Lynn Brass

My name is Terry Brass and I am writing this letter to endorse Paster Ed Wren and the many ministries he and his wife Reva serve and maintain. It is my privilege to call them spiritual mentors in my life and I am truly blessed to call them friends.

Let me tell you a little about myself yesterday and today. I am 55, was an alcoholic and had struggled with that affliction for over 30 years. I have been an inpatient in various "secular" treatment programs 11 times. Basically I went and got sober then shortly after completing the programs I went right back to the drinking. Over the course of several years of this game I began to lose hope of ever living a "normal" life without alcohol. I lost my self respect and my value system was so clouded I did things I was very ashamed of which resulted in me being depressed and riddled with guilt. I have been in and out of jail a few times and that just added to the depression. I was a mess on the inside trying to pretend on the outside that everything was wonderful. I was without hope and slowly destroying myself and the love my family and friends had for me. What a mess.

That was yesterday. Today I have a peace in my life that is indescribable. There has been restoration with my husband and my family. I have a future and hope. I am forgiven and I have victory over the darkness which has so clouded my life.

Let me share with you what happened: My husband dropped me off at the Christian Biker Tabernacle. I was to participate in their discipleship program at God's Ranch. Humiliated as I was, I agreed. The ministry leadership team was wonderful. They took my broken spirit and loved me just as I was. They did not judge me, they loved me. Over the course of the six months I was apart of the program, through the guidence of Pastor Ed and his wife Reva, I found a new hope and a new way of living. I found the love of Christ not only in God's Word but in the wisdom and encouragement of Pastor Ed and his ministry team.

My yesterday is gone and I am forgiven!

I praise God that He sent me to be ministered by Pastor Ed and the many brothers and sisters of the Tabernacle ministries. Pastor Ed is a faithful servant and any consideration you give him and his ministry team would be a blessing to any of the prison facilities in Washington State or any other State for that matter. The message of hope needs to be heard and pastor Ed and his team have the compassion and discernment to share the message with the people and lift them up to a new life filled with restoration and peace.

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Testimony of Karen Stutesman

My name is Karen Stutesman, I first met Pastor Ed and Reva Wren on April 20, 2004 at 10am. I went to a discipleship program they run called "God's Ranch". When I arrived I was a very broken person with no hope of a future; a marriage that was a signature away from being terminated a 3 beautiful children that had lost all hope of ever having their happy family back.

Pastor Ed and Reva opened their arms to me and taught me, through the love of Jesus Christ, that their was hope for the future. They taught me, through scripture, that God could restore my marriage, give my children a happy home and most importantly that God loved me and could forgive me for anything I have done wrong in my life.

I had never known love like that existed until now and if it wasn't for Pastor Ed and Reva I would have walked through life empty and not knowing how to find it. They showed me love, compassion, and gave my life meaningful direction all through the power of Jesus Christ.

It is 40 days shy of 5 years since my life found a new direction. My husband and I stayed married and will be celebrating our 13th wedding anniversary in June. Our Children have all accepted Jesus Christ as their Savior and our home is now a happy one. Pastor Ed has the ability to reach the hurt and down trodden in a way that lasts a life time.

My eyes and heart have been opened to recieve the love of Christ through Pastor Ed and Reva,and because of that we enjoy sharing that love to as many people as possible. My husband and children help me pick up donated food everyday and do a street feed on Saturdays. We are able to share the love so graciously shown to us through Pastor Ed Wren by our Lord Jesus Christ to approximately 1200 people a month.

May the Lord bless you and keep you, may the Lord's face shine upon you and give you peace.

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Testimony of Danette K. Clinton

My name is Danette K. Clinton, I am thirty-three years old. A mother and follower of the Lord Jesus Christ. I currently live in Lincoln California.

When I was lost in sin and drugs my parents sent me to God's Ranch for the first time in 2002. At that time the Lord knew that I was not ready to change. I went back out into the world and back to God's Ranch again. The Lord knew I still wanted it both ways and at the end of 2003 I tried it again.

This time the Lord changed me inside and out. No matter what stuff I pulled, or what rules I broke, Pastor Ed and Reva always loved me and assured me that the Lord loves me too. This ministry showed me a new way of life, and how to live for the Lord and others instead of just for myself.

Really this ministry saved my life and my daughters because they led me to the Lord. you see at God's Ranch I learned first of all to Love the Lord, to love myself, forgive others and myself. To be led by the holy Spirit and not my own understanding.

The Lord has restored all the relationships that I destroyed. I am a living walking miracle Praise the Lord! Today I have my daughter and an awesome Christian man who loves me and my daughter. A new baby on the way, my own house, a job and a family that loves me. Without going to God's Ranch I know in my heart I would be in jail or dead. I pray that you can see the good that this ministry does, the lives that it helps save, and the positive impact it has on lost women, children and men. Thank you.

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Testimony of Andrew Irwin

I am a graduate of the Christian Biker Tabernacle program. I miss all of you soooo much. What the Lord has done through you, has changed my life. It has also inspired many of my friends and relatives outside the church, to seek a new path in life. Praise God. What a blessing you all are. Thank you!

Miss you... Car... The coolest. Dave... Thank God for you and your wife, and all you do. Scott... . I love and miss you bro. Larry... My friend... I want to hit that cliff. See you soon bro! Mike... You always made me laugh, but most of all, I miss your strength. The Man... Pastor Ed... No words... You amaze me!, Mrs. Reva! I would send you flowers every day if I could.

Please say hello to Sam, Cleve, Joe. Rock Stars!!! And all my brothers and sisters. While I was in the program. This verse was revealed to me by someone I feel that God has blessed. So I would like to return this blessing. It reads: Phil; 4:8-9 "And now dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable and right, and, pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me. Everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you." 

Love You and God bless. Drew